Tuesday, July 6, 2010

This'll Be Short

Hey. Just got some things floating around in my head. I'm needing to remind myself that these posts don't have to be long. (That they'll probably be better appreciated and more likely to be read if not long, too...) Plus, maybe I won't become too pensive as a result. :)

Anyway. I was just realizing how much I seem to do things with the hope that if I do them, that means others will do the same for me, too. Selfish, I know... And I don't do what I do solely for that reason. I really do do the things that I do because I want to and because of whatever reason I give per action.

Take my reading of others' blogs for example: I read theirs because I hope they'll read mine and comment on mine in return. But that's not the only reason I read others' blogs. I am truly and thoroughly interested in their thoughts and how much they bare to the world.

I know that sounds creepy, but I think I'm starting to become desperate for a friend. And so I act weird and almost creeper-ish to find one. x.x

Anyway. I'm wondering if other people do the same that I do. (I am using "do" a lot, it seems...) I don't know. Call it curiosity. Call it search for connection. Call it whatever. I'm just pretty sure people do things with the "Golden Rule" in my: do unto others as you'd have them do unto you. Oh what an equivalent exchanging world we live in... :(



r e n e e said...

you are so honest.
in many ways, this is how i feel about everything too!

Emily said...

Well, I find it easier to be honest with people that don't personally know me... And since no one that personally knows me reads my blog, I feel I can be as open as I want. ahahaha! I don't know... Maybe it's because I know that, even if a person on the other end of cyberspace is negatively judging me, I don't have to deal with his/her disdainful or disappointed looks day to day.... I know that's kinda a "screw you" response and I don't mean it so coldly defiant. It's speculation from experiences past... Or for a more positive idea, I realize that people on the other cyberspace ends will be LESS judgmental BECAUSE they don't know me and will be more likely to give me a chance. Either way. :)

Anyhow, now that I've gotten that little (oh, how my blatant irony must be painful...) thought out, I'm VERY glad to know I'm not the only one! haha! It's definitely a comfort. I gotta ask: do you think it's because of the Golden Rule? I don't know... I have always questioned what drives people in different actions. (I'm sorry for always taking a more negative/cynical approach to things and I sincerely hope that it never rubs off on how you write unless you choose to write that way. (Again, I'm being weird for a stranger... x.x I'm sorry...))